I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy
because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that." - Robin Williams (via skateeofmind)
To help them understand.
The way my heart starts to race.
The way the doom and sadness starts to set in.
That sense of failure I feel over and over as I feel it take control, even though I tried over and over to tell myself, “it’s all in your head.”
The way I can’t get it out if my head ever.
The way it sits heavy on my heart, making me feel broken.
The way when a panic attack starts from walking into a store, when the air turns hot as the devil walks in. My ears ring, cotton fills them. I can’t swallow as my throat dries up. My eyes see the the spots and the edges begin to grow darker like an old filter on a picture. I can’t catch my breath, as all I think is, don’t pass out. Not here. Not with all these people. Don’t let them know you are so weak. I abandon my cart, my groceries I’ve collected and struggle my way, stumbling my way through prayers to make it back to my car. Where I sit back letting the cool air soothe me, another failed attempt at a simple task.
The way the tears fall from my eyes when I have to leave work because, I just can’t. I can’t breathe. I can’t think.
The way I struggle through a doctors appointment too afraid to tell them the medicine doesn’t fight it all away because I don’t want to take more pills. The way I become afraid they will take them away but some many people use them for worst things and one day they won’t believe me either.
The way I wonder if there is anything more I could do, anything at all, to make myself ok." - K.wills (via kwillsandink)
Just your daily reminders:
- Racists are a problem
- White people are not
- Homophobes are a problem
- Straight people are not
- Transphobes are a problem
- Cis people are not
- Sexists are a problem
- Men are not
And most importantly,
- Hating an innocent person solely because of their race, sexuality, or gender makes you a fucking asshole